just living proof that the camera is lying

Escaping reality. It's what I crave. I don't know about other people, but escaping reality is an amazing feeling. That's why I love music and movies so much. Movies take your attention away from reality and music is just soothing and therapeutic in general. My biggest fear is death, getting older, or even growing up. It may sound immature, but it's true. I love to live in the present, not the past or future. Yeah, I love to talk about memories from the past, but I purposely try to only remember the good ones that made me happy. Sometimes I focus on the bad ones too much, so I've learned to just try and clear my brain from that. I think being happy is what everybody truly wants. Everybody wants to be with and talk to people who make them happy. Everybody wants to find entertainment that makes them happy. It's what our minds are set on. I could be wrong about this, but it just seems to kind of make sense.

I have pretty good control over my emotions, it's weird. I am able to make myself in a great mood, all I have to do is think about all the things that have made me smile and think about how grateful I am of everything. Although, I'm also able to make myself pretty upset. I think about things that have happened and said to me and I think too much into them. But when that happens, I prevent it from staying like that by thinking about the things that make me happy. Same goes with getting angry. I would to talk to somebody who can relate and understand what I'm saying. Actually, they don't even have to relate. I would just like to hear their opinion and thoughts about what I'm saying and what they think about it.

 I'm in a ranting mood. I think my biggest pet peeves is hypocrites, conceited people, and people who always think they're always right. The worst kind of person is when they're all of those. Hypocrites annoy the hell out of me. They have the nerve to do things and say things that they hate but then do it themselves? And conceited people- people who think they're beautiful, flawless, and just plain perfect physically and mentally. Being conceited is a HUGE flaw in general! if you think you have no flaws at all than that makes It so much worse. How can somebody think that they're perfect and have nothing wrong with them? And when people think they're always right bugs the crap out of me. YOURE NOT ALWAYS GOING TO BE RIGHT, STOP BEING IGNORANT AND REALIZE IT. When you put all this together you get a person who thinks they are perfect and have no flaws so they pick out other peoples flaws and look down on them or talk bad about them. And sometimes they do the flaws themselves but they don't think they do because they think they're perfect and always right. Then if somebody tries to correct them about it they will argue and freak out. They'll be like "YOU DO THIS AND ITS ANNOYING/STUPID, BUT I DON'T DO IT." When in reality they do it sometimes too! I admit im not perfect and I need to work on things, why cant they stop being so damn ignorant and realize they do certain flaws too? This has to be my hugest pet peeve.

I guess im just one of those people who are completely opposite of conceited. I always think I have tons of flaws that I need to fix and I honestly don't think im pretty at all. If im ever hypocritical, I usually don't mean to do it and I usually catch myself doing it. Im one of those people who put themselves in other peoples shoes and I think that's why im so understanding. I don't like conflict. I think that's why I admit that I might be wrong a lot of the time is because sometimes I know I might be. I do admit I think im right a lot at first, but then I get really deep in thought about it and eventually realize im not always right and I could be wrong. I just hate how I have days where im like "why do I have so many flaws? Whats wrong with me?" and also days when Im like "wow, im really ugly." I do have days where Im like "you know, compared to a lot of girls im different. Im not dramatic and im pretty laid back. Im not slutty and Im understanding in situations."

Good things:

Im laid back

Im understanding

I like to resolve things in a fair way

Im not conceited

Im nice

I appreciate things

Im not slutty

Bad things:

I need to think before I talk

Things I say come out wrong

I get too much into my head

I forgive but I never forget and always end up going back and thinking about things

I hate how things I say come out wrong. I think about them fine and it makes complete sense but when I try to explain it, it comes out bad. Im pretty intelligent and can get very deep, I just want to talk to the right people about things. Some people I know only joke around, and that's okay. Sure, it's going to get in the way of a lot of things in their life, but for the moment it's fine. I joke around with them and it's fun and great for a good laugh. But I'm not always in the mood to be cracking up. Sure, a lot of the times I'm always in a mood to laugh and smile. But sometimes I just want to have deep conversations with somebody who will talk back and understand and react. They don't even have to agree with me, I would love to hear what they have to say and their look on things or what they think about what I'm saying.

Don't you just wish when you have thoughts and rants like these, that you could talk to somebody who would completely understand and know where you're coming from? That's what I really want. For somebody to know how I feel and can relate to me and talk back or agree with me about things. Even if they disagree with me on some things, I would love to hear why.

You know what is amusing? Slutty girls. It's actually pretty sad how they have to lower themselves to get horny guys to like them. Do you really need that much attention that you have to show off your boobs and skin all the time? Sure, acting easy will get you attention from guys. But it isn't always going to be the good kind. If you act like that, guys are just going to look at you as some easy girl they might be able to use. Is that really how you want to be treated? Get some respect for yourselves and maybe you'll get respect back.

Wow, so i haven't been on in FOREVER. seriously. its insane.

im not the happiest right now. but whatever. ill just blog about it. certain things cheer me up: blasting music to drown out my thoughts, taking walks, and excersizing.

So my best friend just stabbed me in the back by talking a bunch of shit about me to my other friend. and we've been best friends since i was 3. the things were so mean that they said. and the funny thing is, i didnt do anything to them. we weren't in a fight or anything, they just decided to talk tons of shit about me for days. sometimes i wonder why this happens to me when all i do is be nice to people and don't start drama.

so the only person i trust is my best friend/sister, Leah.

and i just found out a bunch of my friends aren't going to my high school next year so im going to have to make all new friends. Uhg, i hope ninth grade year is fun.

wow, it feels good to vent even though i doubt anybody is reading this.

i think i might start reading fanfics again? they help you escape reality.

im gonna stop complaining because i should appreciate my life because at least im not dieing or anything. some people have it way worse then me.

anybody have fanfics they want me to read ?

Tagged by: xphoebeatthediscox

The Challenge: List 12 songs that cheer you up.

The Rules: Tag 8 people, then they have to tag 8 aswell

1. The World Has Its Sines (but i would drop it on a dime) - Cobra Starship.

2. Franklin - Paramore

3. Kelsey - Metro Station

4. The Only Difference... - Panic At The Disco

5. Taste OF Ink - -The Used

6. A Walk Through Hell - Say Anything

7. SkyWay Avenue - We The Kings

8. Hold The Door - Armor For Sleep

9. Voices - Saosin

10. Your Guardian Angel - The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus

11. Hero/Heroine - Boys Like Girls

12. Pace Yourself - The Higher

My Tags: crashluvr, yuvalush, tara455, bden, brennybearlove, xtrustlovehopex, bemyescape, shadydevi

So today was amazing! I got to go to Max Green's [bassist of escape the fate if u didn't know] house. He was extremely sweet and funny! And probably the most down to earth guy i've ever met in a band. Okay, hmm, where to start haha.

So I got Max's number from myspace not too long ago because he has extra merch from their tour he needs to sell. And I decided to text him. He texted back, and after a short convo he asked if i wanted any shirts or something. So I said ya. :D

Okay blah blah blah he gave me his address since he lives in vegas too. And today me, Leah, and kiersten went to his house!

When we got their I called him and he came outside. He looked really different, he had no eye liner on, had glasses on, and his hair looked lighter. He still looked amazing though, lmao. He said hi and everything and let us in. He was only like an inch taller than me, he was really short! haha. Their was a guy and a girl in his living room. And they like cussed and he said "Don't cuss around my friends!" It was funny. x] So even though his house smelled like smoke, it was really nice. He said he just moved in. But ya, he led us into a room with all the shirts and hoodies. He said it was Ronnie's old room. :/ Each of us got a shirt. I touched a shirt to see if it was my size. And he was like "Hey hands off the merch!" I was like "OH SHIT!" and like jerked back, but he said he was just kidding. x]

After talking with him, we took pictures. I look horrible in mine, but Max looks good. xD [ill put the pics up later] But when we were taking pictures, his friend like ran over and was like "OO OO OO!" And posed, kissing Max's cheek. We took a picture and it came out hilarious. xD Max is like acting all girlish, making a face while he's kissing his cheek. xD

So overall it was like a dream! Haha. We couldn't believe we were actually in his house with him!

Please vote on it. :]

Its really important to me and my friend.

haha. x] Well me and Leah made an account together cause were writing a fanfic together

ADD US: http://vampxdria.buzznet.com/user/

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Oh my god i know its been like a month since I wrote a new part to this fanfic, and im so so so sorry! I really am. Thanks you to everybody who is sticking with me and this story, and still reading it!

Christina- your going to be in the next part ALOT.

Taras POV

"Why the hell are you texting Jac?!" I yelled.

"Keep it down!" He said grabbing the phone back.

"Oh, you're just unbelievable. Texting Ryan's ex, who everybody on this tour hates! And now you want to keep it a secret. What are you banging her behind Christina's back?!" I screamed.

"N-no, its just. Nothing. Okay, ya we've been keeping in contact-" 

"Does anyone know?" I interrupted him.

"No" He mumbled.

I quickly grabbed his phone.

"Tara stop!"

I looked through his texted from her. Most of them she used the word "babe" and "hun."

"Why is she using words like "baby" to you then?!" I asked as he grabbed the phone back.

"Are you going to tell Christina?"

"Look, me and Jac aren't together! Okay? Stop acting like we are. I admit she seems to be flirting with me, but I'm with Christina. And I want to stay with her. She's amazing." Pete smiled to himself.

I got up and stormed out of the bunk area in frustration. How could he be texting her?!

I walked into the lounge and crashed on the couch next to Brendon.

"Hey, what's up? You look confused?" Brendon asked.

I wanted to tell him, but something stopped me. Maybe there is a reason Pete would be keeping in contact with Jac? But how could there be a reason?

"No, I'm just..tired. Today's show gave me a huge headache from jumping and headbanging on stage." I chuckled. "I'm going to go get some rest for tomorrow. We'll be going to the venue earlier I heard."

"Okay, night." He said. I gave him a quick hug and kiss and went into the bunk area. I passed Spencer, Jon, and Ryan sleeping in there bunks. Then I saw Pete laying down in his bunk. I felt his eyes on me, but I ignored him and layed down. I shut the curtain and got in a comfortable position. I heard Pete get up and walk away.

He started talking to Brendon from the lounge area. "Im probably going to have to head back to Chicago soon to start recording a new album with Patrick, Andy, and Joe. As much as I love joining you guys on tour." I heard Pete say.

I put my hands on my forhead and closed my eyes. As much as I was mad at him for talking to Jac and letting her flirt with him, I still wanted him to stay on tour. I started to get sleepy and let my thoughts go away as I fell asleep.

*Next Morning*

I jumped out of the bus with Brendon, but we jumped at the same time and fell on the concrete. I laughed as he was crushing my legs trying to get up. We were laughing, trying to stand up but kept falling. I saw Jake, Joey, and Bryce coming my way, jumping off our bus. I finally managed to get up with Brendon.

"How dare you spend the night on Panic's bus!" Bryce yelled at me jokingly.

"Im sorry the hot pocket I made for you didn't heat up all the way, but you didn't have to leave for another bus!" Bryce pretended to cry.

Me and Brendon laughed.

"Were in Phoenix, Arizona." Joey said.

"We have to go to the venue come on!" I smiled, running to the direction of the venue that was far away.

"Your not even ready! And nobody else is." Joey yelled while I was running. I stopped running and realized I was in yesterdays clothes with my hair messed up. I ran back.

"So is Leah and William still not talking?" I asked out of breath.

"Ya, William is trying to explain to Leah that he tried to tell her, and he really didn't want to. But she never listens." Bryce explained.

"Hm.." Was all I could say. I should talk to Leah.

"TARAAA!" I heard Kiersten scream and we ran up to eachother and body slammed.

"Jeez, a whole night without you was horrible!" Kiersten said over-dramaticlly.

Everybody headed to the Venue. Leah was talking to Sisky and Pete. So me and Kiersten looked at each other and nodded. We discussed earlier that we would help William get Leah back with telling him what to say and when to say it. Everybody walked backstage, but me and Kiersten stopped William.

"Whats up guys?" William asked.

"Listen, were going to help you get Leah back." I grinned. Kiersten nodded the smiled with me.

William smiled. "Okay, how? I tried yesterday, she won't even let me talk to her."

"We know, that's why we're here. We know Leah way better the anyone. So this is what your going to say when you walk up to her..."

Me and Kiersten told him what to say. William nodded and we told him what to do if she walks away. He was finally prepared and we walked into the venue.

We walked into one of the dressing rooms, and there was Leah! But she was talking to someone with black hair..

"Ben?" William asked shocked.

They looked over, then Leah turned back to him.

"I can't wait!" Leah yelled happily, hugging him.

Im probably going to update on "just sit back and relax" soon. Sorry for the wait. Well I hope u like this chapter :]

Tamaras POV

"Oh so a party just popped out of nowhere?" I said sarcasticlly, referring to all the people, loud music, and huge mess. There were even jocks and preps there. Which me, Spencer, and Ryan hate. I wasn't necessarily mad. Im just really not in the mood for a party.

"We invited a few friends over, and I guess to people a "few friends" means a hundred. So they invited people who invited people who invited people, well it just goes on. So everybody ended up coming." Ryan explained, he didn't seem to thrilled either. But then again he was smiling. I knew he really did. Him and Spencer always wanted to throw a party.

"Hey Tamara, your here!" Spencer said walking over.

I turned to Spencer, then Ryan, then grunted and walked upstairs into Ryans room.

I turned on the light, and shut the door. I walked over and sat on his bed.                                         I sat there for a few minutes in silence, then looked over at his acoustic guitar, smiling to myself. I picked it up and gently placed it on my lap. I started playing "The Ghost of You" by My Chemical Romance.

I was thirsty, so I decided to go downstairs and get a drink, avoiding everyone.

Once I got to the fridge, I grabbed a soda and headed upstairs. I stopped half way up the stairs and looked back. Oh my god, its that one kid from school, and guitar center. Why is he here? And why am I seeing him everywhere.

I turned around and went up to Spencer and Ryan, who were taling to some guys.

"Hey, I new you would come down sometime." Spencer smiled.

"I came down for a drink. Well anyways why is that kid here?" I said pointing to him.

They shrugged.

"His friend probably invited him here or something." Ryan said still looking at him. "Why, you know him?"

"Uhh no not really. He was just in the class with me when I had to stay in for lunch. And I saw him at guitar center."

"Whats his name?" Spencer asked.

"Im not sure" I shrugged. "Well im going upstairs, bye." I smiled.

"What? Why? Why don't you stay down here and have fun." Ryan asked.

"Its loud and obnoxious down here. I much rather be in your room listening to music and playing guitar." I smiled again and went upstairs.

I walked into the room and shut the door. It was quiet, and you could barilly hear the music downstairs. I picked the guiat back up, once again. I went back to playing The ghost of You, from where I took off.

I kept playing, with my eyes closed. For some reason I like playing guitar with my eyes closed. I knew this cover by heart.

I heard someone knock the door. I figured it was probaly Ryan or Spencer trying to get me to come down. I continued playing, but the person knocked again.

"I told you im not going downstairs, im staying up here!" I yelled.

The door opened. And my eyes widened a little, realizing it was that one kid.

"Oh sorry! I thought you were Ryan or Spencer." I said quickly.

He laughed a little, still standing in the doorway.

"No its fine. I didn't mean to walk in on you. I just heard someone playing guitar when I walked up here. I wanted to know who it was." He said.

"Oooh." I laughed. "You heard me?"

"Ya, I didn't really want to stay downstairs, so I came up here."

We sat there for a seconds in silence. Then I realized I don't know his name.

"Whats you name?" I blurted out.

He looked at me. "Brendon."

"Im Tamara."

"Ya, I remember your binder said that, when we were in class."

"Oh right." I said setting the guitar to my side. He walked over and sat on the other side of the bed.

"So you play guitar?" He asked. I nodded.

"Me too." He said.

"Oh really? What kinda guitar do you have?" I asked

"I have an acoustic, then a fender electric guitar." He said.

I smiled. "I love fenders!"

"Ya me too. What kind of guitars do you have?"

"Well, I don't have one. I just use Ryans to play on and stuff, my parents would never ever get me one. And I don't have enough money."

"Oh. Im sorry."

I laughed. "Its okay. I spend all my time at Ryans, so I guess this is my guitar too."

"Oh, so your Ryans girlfriend?"

"Oh hell no!"

He laughed.

"Im his best friend. Him, me, and Spencer are all neighbors and best friends."

"Ooooh."

Before I knew it we were talking for hours.

I haven't updated in a week! Im sorry. Arg. I couldn't concentrate at all while writing this part! It was really noisy cause my dad and his friends are drunk downstairs. And there hella loud, and extremely annoying. :| I can only write in quietness. Thats why I write at night cause nobody is up except for me, i like it :] Thanks for everyone who takes the time to read my fanfic and leave comments and buzzes! U guys rock :D

Tamaras POV

The bell finally rang and I got up with relief, finally lunch. As I was walking out the teacher stopped me.

“Tamara.” I turned around, how the hell did this teacher know my name?!

“What?”

“Your teacher left me a note saying to keep you in for lunch.” He said. “You can sit back in your seat.”

I sat back down with a thud and rolled my eyes. He walked out with everybody else, except that one kid in front of me with dark brown hair.

I looked at him as he sat there opening up his binder.

It was silent, and I was bored.

“Why are you staying in here?” I blurted out.

He turned around and looked at me.

“I have make-up work Mr. Valencia wanted me to do. So he had me stay in for lunch, or whatever.” He simply stated.

He seemed nice. A bit shy.

“Ohh. okay.” I said.

It got quiet again, while he did his work.

I was extremely bored. So I got up, screw this teacher, im going to lunch.

The guy looked at me, I could tell he knew what I was doing.

I walked out of the room, looking back one more time. He smiled at me. I just smiled back and walked out.

When I entered the lunch room, I looked around for Spencer or Ryan. I spotted them sitting down at a table. I walked over and sat down.

“There you are! Where have you been?” Ryan asked.

“My teacher kicked me out of the classroom and made me stay for lunch. But I left anyways.” I smirked.

Ryan and Spencer laughed.

“Well my parents are gone for a few days, thank god. We should go over my house.” Ryan said.

“Alright cool.” I said.

Spencers POV

It felt like days, but school finally ended. I walked out of the classroom to my locker, here Tamara and Ryan were waiting.

"Hey guys." I said.

"Hi." They both replied.

I got my stuff and we walked out of the school, towards Ryan's house.

"Hey, wanna go to guitar center? I lost a pin, and need to get another one." Tamara asked looking up at us, we were taller then her, so she always had to look up at us. It was kind of funny. x]

"Sure, but we can't stay there long, we have to get back to Ryan's house quick." I winked at him.

"For what?" She asked.

"Its a suprise."

"Errrg, I hate suprises! Tell me!" She asked.

Me and Ryan smiled, then shook our heads.

We got to Guitar Center and looked around, Tamara went to go get her pin, and me and Ryan went to go look at the guitars.

Tamaras POV

A guy who works there showed me where the pins were, and I picked one out.

As I was waiting in line, I noticed a farmiliar guy next to me, looking at an acoustic guitar. It was that one kid who was in the room with me. I never got his name. I tried not to look over at him, it was one of those akward things that you avoid. I saw him look over at me in the corner of my eye, I just kept looking forward. I looked over one more time and he was looking at me, we both turned away.

Thank god Ryan and Spencer walked over, saving me from the akwardness.

"I so wanna get that guitar!" Ryan said pointing over to the an acoustic one.

"You already have an electric." I said.

"Ya, but I want an acoustic." He smiled like a cheesy 4 year old.

"Hes gonna save up his money for it." Spencer said.

"You don't have a job though." I said.

"Ill get one, like at the fashion show mall or something."

"Oh cool! Maybe Ill get one too!" I smiled.

Spencer and Ryan laughed at me, like I was some over-happy child.

"Hey, were gonna head back to Ryans, we'll see you there." Spencer said.

"Okay, see ya at Ryan's." I said as they walked out with huge grins. What were they planning?

I bought my pin, and was about to walk out, but I saw a black and red guitar. It caught my eye, not that I could buy it, I didn't have the money. And my parents wouldn't give me any money at all. But I just had to play it.

I walked over and took it off the stand. I strummed it, starting to play a cover of "Never Let You Go" by Third Eyed Blind.

I stopped, and put it back on the stand. I should head over to Ryan's house.

I walked out the store and started walking to Ryans house.

I was almost in his neighborhood, and I heard loud music from afar. I kept walking, and as I was getting closer to his house, the music was getting louder. Either they're blasting music, or something else...

I walked up to the house, and opened the door. I looked around shocked.

Ryan walked over.

"What the hell Ryan?!"

"It wasn't suppose to turn out like this!"

--- so ya, theres chapter 3 :D thanks for anyone whos reading this and leaving comments and buzzes! It makes me happy!! Haha. People have been asking me where I got the title from, and its my own lyrics. ^-^ ---

okay, so i must be the happiest person alive :D well panic! at the disco and the cab were opening up for the grand opening of guitar centers. and me, leah, and kiersten got to meet panic! at the disco, cash [bass player of the cab], and alex [lead vocals of the cab] it was AMAZING! That night was literally the best night in my life. :]

so we got there around 5:30. And got in line to meet and get something signed by panic! at the disco. We were like one of the first people!! While we were waiting Cash came over ot us, and talked to us. :D He was hilarious, and really nice. He also gave me a hug. woo! xD haha. We took pictures with him. And he even took the picture for us. it was funny. he was like "oooh these are one of those "myspace" pictures!" Cash was like the most awesome person ever. :D haha. Then he brang over alex [lead vocals] and alex [keyboardist] to say hi :D we took a picture with them and stuff ^-^ OH! and me, leah, and kiersten just found out that my mom's friend is friends with Cash's mom, and shes close to Cash!! So I messaged The Cab about it on myspace, and Cash replied "ya i love barbie" and stuff :D

While we were waiting in line, the bus next to us had panic! at the disco in it, and Jon and Ryan were waving at us from in it. haha. And soon strippers went on the bus, and it was like..shaking. 0.0 *twitch* thats vegas for you lmao. well anyways. Soon we finally got to meet Panic! at the disco!!! We were like freaking out, lmao. :D I high-fived spencer, and got a picture signed by the whole band. This may sound stupid, but everytime I made eye contact with any of them[especially Brendon], I was like in heaven. haha. And after we we got it signed and stuff, we were behind the rope thingy watching them sign things. Haha Brendon was hyper, he was like dancing and doing funny faces. it was funny :D We could only get one thing signed, but I really wanted my shoe to be signed by brendon. So I had to like beg Zach to give Brendon the shoe to sign. and at first he was like "FUCK NO" then later he said "Maybe" then he said yea and gave Brendon the shoe to sign. :D Then Jon through his pen to me, and I caught it. but the girls next to me were all pissed, cause they almost had it. lmao.

So over all that night was more amazing then words.

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Taras POV

I pulled away from Brendon and smiled.

"Hey, were not getting on the road until like an hour, come hang out on my bus." Brendon said pulling my arm playfully.

I laughed and walked with him onto his bus. Ryan was reading a book, and Jon was watching TV. I didn't see Spencer.

"Hey Tara." Jon smiled, and Ryan looked up and waved.

"oOoOo lets play guitar hero!" Brendon crashed on the couch and picked up the guitar. I laughed and crashed next to him picking up the other one.

I felt my phone vibrate in my pocket. I opened my eyes and looked up at Brendon sleeping. Woah, we fell asleep? Brendon's mouth was open, and a tad bit of drool coming out, I laughed and picked up my cell phone.

"hello?"

"Hey, where the hell are you?" It was Leah, with Joey and Kiersten in the background.

"Im on panic's bus, why?"

"Well were on the road! And we thought you were on the bus, but you weren't. So we got worried."

I sat up a little. "So im on Panic's bus until we get to the next city?"

"I guess so, I mean were on the highway. Oh well. Ill talk to you later."

"Bye." I hung up, and looked over at Brendon shifting, then waking up,

"What th-" He sat up. "When did we fall asleep?" Brendon asked rubbing his eyes.

I shrugged. "I just got a call from Leah, and apparently were on the road, and nobody realized I was on your bus."

"YAY!" He squealed like a little girl and started dancing.

"WEEE!" I danced with him.

Ryan and Spencer walked in the room and gave us a wierd look.

"whats Tara doing on here?" Ryan asked grabbing a sode out of the fridge.

"I fell asleep on here, and the busses started driving to the next city while I was on here." I said.

"Isnt that just wondeful?!" Brendon through his arms around Ryan giving his a kiss on the head.

Me and Brendon both started laughing, and Ryan rolled his eyes jokingly.

"Somebodys hyper." he said lying in his bunk.

"Hey Brendon, want a beer?" Spencer offered. I stopped laughing and looked away. He BETTER not get drunk.

Brendon looked over at me, then back at Spencer.

"No thanks." He said. I smiled.

"What?" Brendon asked looking at me.

"Your not gonna drink."

"I don't always drink, just sometimes." He said.

I looked down.

"Ya, i know..I just don't like when you get drunk."

"Why?" He asked.

I shifted to the other side of the couch. "Umm, I don't know."

"There has to be a reason"

"No, just, like a childhood thing. Lets not talk about it, im happy. Wanna watch a movie?" I asked.

Brendon gave me a weird look, then nodded.

"Sure, what do you want to watch?" He asked.

"You can pick, i'm gonna go use the bathroom real quick." I said and got up, walking past the bunks. I stopped at Petes cause I saw him on his sidekick. I didn't know where we stood, but he was still was of my best friends.

"Hello Peter." I said with an english accent and sat in his bunk.

He looked over, kinda startled, then laughed.

"What are you doing on here?" He asked.

"Jeez, nobody knows I was on here? Well I fell asleep on here, then the busses got on the road." I explained.

"Oh." His sidekick vibrated and he opened it.

"Oooo, Pete texting his giiiirlfriend?" I asked.

He uncomfortably chuckled then he turned his phone away from me, like he was hiding the screen from me.

I raised my eyebrow.

"Who are you texting?" I asked.

"N-nobody."

"Your a horrible liar." I said and grabbed his phone from his hands.

I looked at the screen and my eyes widened when I saw who it was and what it said. A text from Jac.

Okay, I know this part was extremely boring. It was a filler, but next one will be very interesting. Hehe. Ahh Leah im sooo addicted to your fanfics.

For you people who aren't reading them, I recommend checking them out under "crashluvr", first on my top. There ADDICTING. haha.

well im still in a happy mood that i got to meet panic! at the disco and the cab at the grand opening of guitar center. :D:D I got pictures with Cash and alex [the cab] they were so nice, and Cash was funny, he was talking to us for like 10 minutes :D and when I met panic! at the disco i got them to sign a picture, and I had to beg Zach to let Brendon sign my shoe. haha. [cause u could only get 1 thing signed]

ooo and me, kiersten, and leah went to guitar center again today, and they had a black and red clandestine bass, it was my DREAM bass. :O Im so gonna save money up for it, or get my parents to buy it for me :]

well im done blabbing, haha sorry.

Ryans POV

I just wanna break u down so badly, well i trip over everything u said

I slammed the "snooze button" on my alarm clock with disguist.

Great..first day of school.

I made myself get up and throw a black "my chemical romance" shirt on with a pair of skinny jeans. I brushed my hair leaving some of it over my left eye.

As I was brushing my teeth, my cell phone vibrated in my pocket. I took it out. New text from Tamara. I opened it.

Arg, school today. Ill met u at your house in like 5 minutes. :]

I replied saying "alright cool."

5 minutes later I saw Tamaras hands open my window, and soon she came up.

"Hey" She half smiled rubbing her eyes. She looked half alseep still with her black and red hoody on.

I laughed and shook my head.

"What?" She asked puzzled.

"You always climb up through the window, when you can just go through the front door like normal person would."

"Well im not normal, and plus its always akward making eye contact with your parents, even Spencers parents. Parents are just so..akward.

"Okay then..Hey ready to go meet up at Spencers?"

"Ya cool" She took off her hood. I grabbed my binder and we headed downstairs.

"Don't get in too much trouble" Ryans dad laughed obnoxiously. He just rolled his eyes and we walked outside to spencers house next door.

We were about to knock but Spencer already opened the door.

"Bye hunny!"

"Bye mom!"

Spencer said and closed the door behind him. Me and Ryan laughed and Spencer just mumbled "shut up."

"Do you guys have your schedule or whatever?" Spencer asked.

"I wrote mine on my hand." Ryan said.

"Same here, I threw it out, it made me think of school." Tamara said shuffling with her wrist band from the adventuredome.

As we were walking to school, a truck speeded by with a group of girls and guys in the back.

"Ugh, annoying preps and jocks." Tamara said.

"I know, im so looking forward to high school." Spencer rolled his eyes.

I felt something hit my butt and looked to the side. Spencer and Tamara were laughing.

"What the fuck?" I said.

"She kicked a rock at your butt" Spencer laughed.

Tamara smiled widely and I shoved her.

She fell to the ground on purpose and held her leg.

"I think I broke my leg!" She pretended to cry in pain. Spencer kept laughing and helped her up.

"Damn right bitch!" I said jokingly.

Tamaras POV

We turned a corner and saw our school. We heard the bell ring from afar and started running so we wouldn't be late.

When we got in we didn't have time to go to our lockers.

"Whats your first period?" I asked.

"English with Ms. Sofia" Ryan said.

"Me too" Spencer said.

"damnit, I have math. We'll compare schedules later" We walked off in different directions.

I walked into my first period right when the bell rang.

People starred at me, as usual, because im not a typical "prep" like most girls. I had dark brown hair, practiclly black, with red bangs. I had black skinny jeans on, a white shirt with a black and red hoodie unzipped. I just walked to the back and sat down at an empty desk.

As the teacher was talking, my phone vibrated.

I opened it and saw a text from Ryan.

Hey, wow this teacher is boring, wutsup? Spencer's next to me, he says hi :)

I replied.

I know same here, im bored to death aready. hmm i hungry. Hey Spence! :]

A few seconds later I got a reply.

Me too, I wonder when lunch is.

"Tamara stop texting and pay attention, or ill take your phone away!" The teacher yelled, interrupting me from reading the text.

"Okay jeez, dont get your panties in a knot."

The class giggled and the teacher got more pissed off.

"Dont back mouth me! Show some respect!"

"Why don't u show me some respect!"

"Thats it, go to the next door classroom."

I grabbed my stuff and walked out of the classroom. I opened the door to the next one and walked in. The whole class looked over, including the teacher.

"My teacher told me to come here." I said.

"Okay take a seat over there" He pointed to a desk in the back and I walked over and sat in it.

I slunched back and put my hood on. A boy turned around and looked at me. I looked back. He had dark brown hair with red glasses, wearing a blink 182 shirt. He turned back around since I made eye contact with him.

...weird.

Leahs POV

I starred at the text blankly, until Tara walked in.

"TARA!" I yelled still starring at the text.

"Woah, what?" She said coming over.

"Read this" I pushed the phone in her face.

She read it out loud. "Man that scene with you and that chick was hot, she got completely into it."

"Can u believe that! Since when did they have a "hot" scene, I didn't know about this! did you know?!"

Tara leaned against the wall akwardly.

"Uhh, ya. I thought u knew."

"What?! No I didnt know! What happened?!"

"Umm, i don't know, they just made out, and uh, he as about to take off her shirt, but they stopped the scene, because I mean KIDS are watching this." She tried to make a joke, but failed.

I starred at her, feeling like steem was coming from my ears. I slammed the phone down on the table.

"Where the fuck is William?!" I screamed and stormed out the room.

I ran up on the side of the stage, and waited for them to finish they're last song.

William said his "thank you" to the fans for coming out to see them, and as soon as he stepped foot off stage, I ran up to him.

I pulled off the towel on his head and shoved.

"What the hell Leah?!"

Sisky, the butcher, Michael, and Mike just stood there silently.

"You never told me about your little spit swaping with that "ONE CHICK!" I practiclly screamed at him.

Williams POV

Oh shit, she wasn't supposed to find out this way.

"Look I was going to tell yo-"

"And WHEN exactly?! When the music video comes out?!" She shoved me again.

My mind was rushing so fast when Tara slowly walked next to Sisky. Everybody was pretty much here, except a few people, I was guessing they heard Leah screaming and came out.

Tara walked up to Leah. "uhhh, Leah, how abou-"

"SHUT UP TARA!" She yelled.

Tara: >:|

Taras POV

I walked out of the room madly. I heard my name being called. I turned around and saw Brendon catching up with me.

I smiled ignoring the shit going on beside the stage with everyone.

"HELLO" He said.

"HELLO" I said back. We laughed and started walking out.

"Whats up with all that crap going on?" He asked.

I shrugged.

"Lets go back to your bus and play guitar hero and relax from everything." Brendon said.

I smiled, this reminded me why I love Brendon.

This part is long, I hope I made up for not posting in a while :D

Williams POV

"Well what is it?" Leah asked a little impatient.

I couldn't tell her yet, the situation right now i bad enough. I guess Ill tell her later.

I tried to come up with a lie quick, then I realized Sisky lost there duck they found on tour, William turner, while he let him out to go to the bathroom.

"ya I hate to tell you this..but Sisky lost William Turner, when he let him out to pee." I quickly said.

"What the hell do u mean Sisky lost William Turner?! Uhhg things cant get any worse!"

Oh trust me, it it can.. I thought.

"Ya..im sorry" I sighed and looked at my watch, "We better get out of here quick, the show is on in fucking 20 minutes!"

"They'll have to come eventually, I mean their elevator is stuck, they have to notice sometime!" Leah said.

She turned away from my eyes and to Santi. I could tell she was getting upset and annoyed with his constant chewing on the hole in the bottom level of the elevator.

She went to reach for the dog when suddenly the elevator shifted. She looked over at me with wide eyes.

"Shit what was that?!" Leah nearly yelled.

I looked back then down at the ground and saw Santi pulling out a wire out of the hole while chewing on it.

Leah got up and looked at the wire. The elevator shifted again causing Leah to fall.

"This isn't good, I think Santi might of pulled out an important wire" I said.

Leah grabbed Santi in her lap and took the wire from his mouth.

I got up "Look they won't help us in anytime soon, we have to get out somehow, and I have an idea."

"Okay what is it" Leah asked and got up standing next to me with Santi in her arms.

"If we can get this elevator to shift to the next level it will open. So when I say 3 we'll jump at the same time repeatedly until it shifts."

"Wow..your smart." Leah said.

I counted to 3 and we both jumped. We kept doing that, and each time the elevator shifted some more. On the fourth jump the elevator fully shifted down to the next level.

Leah smiled widely and gave me a huge kiss.

"YAY WILLIAM I LOVE YOU!!!!" She said. The elevator doors opened and we ran out with Santi.

"HALLELUJAH!!!!" Leah screamed we both ran out of the building with people staring at us. Probably because we were wet, muddy, and had a dog with us.

As we ran and ran, we finally reached the venue. I heard Basic Instinct playing, it was there last song.

"Oh shit its there last song, Im on in 2 minutes!" I shouted.

"Here follow me!" Leah yelled and I followed her running into the backstage. I heard playing stop, then realized Basic Instinct was done with there last song.

We ran into backstage and saw Kiersten and Tara standing.

"Oh my gosh there you fucking are, where have u been?!?! Your on right now!!!! Why are you all  muddy and wet?!?! Whos the dog?!?!?!" Kiersten was now spitting out questions and yelling at us.

"Have no time, we'll explain later!!!" Leah yelled. I ran up on stage. The Butcher and Sisky were stalling doing there "neon body style" rap. Michael, Mike, Sisky, and Butcher looked over at me, I could tell they were relieved to see me, but they had weird looks on their faces. Then I realized I looked like a sea monster, all muddy and wet. I just smiled and nodded my head at them. The crowd screamed, and most of the kids had weird looks on their faces too. This is going to be an interesting show..

Leahs POV

I finished telling them what happened.

"Wow.." Tara said speechless.

"Now we have to get him clean somehow, hes probably really embarressed up there like that!" I said.

"I have an idea!" Tara shouted happily.

"Okay what is it?!" I asked.

Tara looked over at Kiersten. "do u still have those long water balloons?!" She asked her.

"Ya, why?? ....oooh! I see what your saying"

"Okay ill go get them and fill the mup with water!" Tara shouted running off.

"What are we going to do?!" I asked.

"Well while hes on stage, we can throw water balloons at him, to get him cleaned off with all that crap!" Kiersten said.

Tara came running back with a bunch of water balloons in her hands. We quickly grabbed some and went over to the side of the stage.

"Ready?" Tara said. Me and Kiersten nodded. Tara gave us a signal and we started throwing the water balloons at William.

Wiliams POV

I was running around on stage, feeling disguisting cause I was covered with wet mud, and in front of a bunch of fans!

I suddenly felt a wet balloons hit me. I suddenly started getting hit repeatedly by water balloons. I looked over and saw Leah, Tara, and Kiersten throwing them at me. I laughed and realized what the were doing. The crowd's screaming increased, and they were wet too.

At first it felt great, and I was glad the crowd was having fun. But then I saw a few sparks from the amps. Butcher noticed it too, and started looking worried.

I continued to sing the song, and the band kept playing, but they new there were more and more sparks coming from the amps.

Suddenly a whole bunch of sparks came flying out, almost like fireworks! Leah, Kiersten, and Tara stopped throwing the balloons because they knew the water was causing the sparks.

I guess the crowd thought it was part of the show and started screaming more.

Leahs POV

"Oh shit, the sparks are going off even more." Tara said looking out at the stage.

"Maybe we can get some stage crew to get out there and fix it during the show" I said.

I walked over and sat on the couch. I saw Williams phone. I decided to play with it, I always had fun playing with his phone.

As I was going through his games, a text popped up. I decided it wouldn' hurt if I read it.

I opened the text and saw it was from Gabe. My jaw dropped as I read it.

"When was this part of the music video?!" I said to myself in astonishment.

Lately i've had so much on my mind. Like do u ever have that feeling where u wish u can clear your mind but u cant no matter what.

ive had that feeling non stop lately.

i always have something on my mind, that i cant stop thinking about. and its usually something bad. :P

and then that causes me not to think straight. which is affecting me in school. So lately ive been doing bad in school with things on my mind, or just having songs stuck in my head and urging to write lyrics or something.

and then at night when i have thoughts going on in my mind, i cant sleep. which isnt unusal for me, because i have trouble sleeping anyways, but its becoming worse :P

and on weekends or when i come home from school, i just wish that the day will go really slow cause i dont wanna face tomorrow with school and everything.

i mean at school im acting my normal self with my friends, but really in the inside im trying to face that i wish i could just stay home and relax and live my life.

so thats just adding more stress on me. This school year is pretty stressful itself with work and everything, but now i have to deal with stuff constantly on my mind. Oh and may I add that im not feeling good and ive been getting sick alot lately too.

Well also, im having this guilt because im doing something to not dissapoint anybody, but really i have no feeling for this "thing" and wishing that i wouldnt have to do it. but ill deal with it.

i really dont know what im talking about, usually i dont post or try and explain things that im thinking. so your probably wondering what i mean. haha.

lets just amount everything up to im feeling "salty" <-- haha. ya if u havent watched that one tai episode about the shrunken sweater then you wont get that x]

but im able to cover up my "saltiness", its just hard dealing with it all and keeping it in the inside.

ehh. i dont know.

well on a happier note.

im definetly posting for just sit back and relax tomorrow. and maybe for my new fanfic keep drawing on that fake smile.

and i got "keep drawing on that fake smile" as one of my lyrics if your wondering cause i got some questions about that.

sorry i havent been able to post that much, i really am truely sorry for making u guys wait. i enjoy writing so much, it sucks that ive been really busy and not able to update so much.

well thanks for listening to me nag x]

Taras POV

I was walking around the venue with Bryce, Jake, and Joey. It was hot, but not too hot since it was 5 PM. There were fans waiting outside, alot of them knew us suprisingly. We signed some autographs and talked to fans when we passed them. It was fun getting to know our fans.

"Thank you for the autograph, cant wait to see you guys on stage!" A girl said.

"Your welcome! See you tonight!" Bryce said.

We walked past Tony and The butcher smoking.

"Hey guys, have you seen William?" Tony asked.

"No, but he should be in the building somewhere, hes probably just walking around. I haven't seen Leah either, shes probably with him" I said.

"Okay thanks guys" Tony said. We walked off.

Williams POV

As me and Leah were walking along side a lake, I was trying to figure out how to tell Leah, I knew she wouldn't be happy about it, knowing her jealousy.

"Maybe we should head back to the venue soon, the show will start in 2 hours" Leah said.

"oka-"

I was cut off by a high pitch barking noise.

"What the fuck is that?" Leah said looking around. It kept getting louder and louder.

I looked around, it was coming from the lake. "It sounds like a..dog?"

"OH MY GOD LOOK!!" Leah screamed pointing out to the lake. There was a puppy out in the lake drowning!

"We have to save it!!" She yelled. Next thing I knew she jumped in the lake and started swimming towards it. I was in shock, but then jumped in after her following her to the puppy. I kept swimming and swimming behind her.

Leahs POV

I was swimming towards the poor brown puppy. The lake was disguisting, I felt like I was swimming in mud. I finally reached to the puppy and put it in my arms. I turned around and saw William swimming up to me.

"Its still alive lets get back to shore!" I yelled.

William turned around and we started swimming back, which was hard since I had a squirming puppy in my arms.

We finally got to shore, soaking wet of gross water. I looked at the brown and black puppy in my arms, it looked like a yorkie. It was wet and shivering.

"How the hell did a puppy get out there?" William said twisting his hair getting the water out.

"I have no idea, but it has no collar, lets keep him!" I said with a huge smile.

"May I remind you we are on tour, how can we have a dog on tour?!" William said.

I rapped my arms around the shivering, scared puppy. "Pete brought Hemingway on tour before"

"Ya but..I dont know. It will be hard. And what if the guys dont want a dog on the bus?" He said.

"Well they'll deal with it" I said.

"Okay, then take the puppy" William said with a smile.

"Yaay!"

" Lets get back to the venue-" William looked at his watch. "Its already 5:45, the show starts at 7! We have to change our clothes"

"Yea I know, and you should take a shower before you go on stage" I said cradeling the puppy in my arms.

We started walking back towards the building we could see far away.

"Poor thing is probably hungry and scared" I said looking down in the puppy's big brown eyes.

"What are you going to name it?" William asked.

I shrugged.

We finally got to the back of the building. We opened the door and went in the elevator.

We were still wet, and cold in the elevator.

I sighed and put the puppy down for it to walk around a little. I sat on the floor of the elevator.

"Is it a boy or a girl?" William asked.

"I don't know, check." I giggled.

He picked up the dog and looked. "Its a boy" He said and set the dog down.

"Okay! Ill name him..uhm..SANTI!"

William laughed.

"Thats awesome!" He said and sat next to me putting his arm next to me.

Suddenly the elevator stopped and jerked me and Williams heads.

"Oh my god, did it just STOP?!?!" I yelled.

"I think so.."

I panicked and shot up.

"ITS NOT MOVING!!" I yelled. William got up.

"There has to be an emergency button!" He yelled. I looked over at the buttons..not one sight of an emergency button.

"I dont see one!" I said. William rushed over next to me and looked.

"Oh shit.." He said. I sat down.

"They are going to have to figure out the elevator is stuck sometime!!" William said.

"Ya..but what if its not in time with your show!"

William looked at his watch. "its 6:15" He sighed.

"they better fucking hurry up!" I said. There was silence, just Santi walking around in the small spaced elevator.

"Hey..um..I have to tell you something." William said.

"Okay what is it?"

"I don't think your going to be too happy about it" He said.

I sighed. Great..bad news. AND were stuck in an elevator soaking wet with a dog. My luck...

I woke up that morning in my bunk. The bus was moving, so we must be on the road still. Jake was so comforting last night, with my confusion about Pete and Brendon. It made me smile to myself. I tried to ignore it for now, but we will be at the venue soon, so I couldn't ignore it soon. I looked outside the window to see us passing then "welcome to Arizona" sign. I got up and walked out to the lounge. There was Leah and Kiersten on the couch.

"TARAAAA!" Leah screamed.

I had a huge heachache, im definetly not a morning person.

"HI!!!" I still managed to be my hyper self. xD

I sat across from Kiersten and next to Leah.

"Were in Arizona!! WOO!!" Kiersten yelled. I laughed and Bryce walked out.

"Could you guys be any more louder?!" He said rubbing his messy hair.

"AHH MONSTER!" Leah yelled and through a remote at him. Me, Leah, and Kiersten giggled like little kids and Bryce stuck his tounge out at us.

Bryce walked over to the fridge and got out a hot pocket. I jumped on his back.

"HELP! IM BEING RAPED BY TARA!!" Bryce screamed out. I smacked him upside the head and while he was laughing.

"Give me a piggy back ride bitch!" I said. Kiersten and Leah were laughing.

The bus stopped and me and Bryce fell on the floor. Sisky and te bitcher walked on the bus. and saw me sitting on Bryce, Bryce yelling help, and Leah and Kiersten hypervelenating from laughing.

"What the fuck?" The Bucther said. Sisky was luaghing at how stupid we probably looked. I jumped up.

"SISKY BUISNESS!" I yelled getting off of Bryce.

"ADAM THADIEST SISKA!" Leah yelled.

"THE BUTCHAAAA!" Kiersten yelled.

"RAAADISH!!!" Sisky yelled.

"CUCUMBER!!!" The Butcher yelled.

"ZUCINIIII!" Sisky yelled again. We all laughed and Bryce gave us weird looks as he ate his hot pocket.

"Your just jealous of our niiiicknaaaames" Sisky said like a 4 year old bragging about his new action figure.

After Sisky and The Butcer got off our bus I walked into the bathroom and started getting ready to go to the venue. I through on a black hoodie and grey skinny jeans. I put on black eye liner and quickly combed my hair and straightened it. As I was walking out I ran into Pete, literally.

"Oh sorry Tara" He said.

"Haha its okay" I said straighteneing my hoodie out.

"Patrick just left" Pete said.

"Awww, I didn't say a final goodbye. Ill call him up later" I said.

There was kind of an akward silence.

"Look about last night" He began.

"Pete, you have a girlfriend, Christina, and I have brendon" I said looking down.

"I know, I like Christina alot..but don't you "feel" anything going on between us. Your one of my best friends, but-" Pete was rambeling, and I stopped him.

"I just don't know Pete, Im confused. I dont know whats going on between us. I-I do feel something for you, but then your also a great friend of mine. I mnot sure if I should let that happen. And Brendon.."

"I guess we'll see what happens" He grinned. Pete was such a confusing and odd person. I loved that about him. He will just let whatever happens happen.

Pete looked at the eye liner in my hand.

"Oh can i use some?! I forgot to put some on today." Pete said with a cute smile on his face.

"suure!! Can I put it on you, pleeaaase?!"

He laughed and nodded. I put some eyeliner on his top lid and smeared it. I then put a thick shade under his eye and smeared it.

"YAAY ALL DONE!" I said and put down the eye liner. Pete looked in the mirror.

"It looks fucking awesome! You do guyliner better then me!" He laughed.

"Lets head out to the venue" I said putting my hood on. Pete put his hood on too ans we walked out. I could tell the guys and leah and kiersten were already there.

We walked inside the building and Pete walked into Panic's dressing room. I was about to walk into Basic Instinct's dressing room when I suddenly got pulled aside.

I looked up and saw Brendon with a cute smile on his face.

"Hi" I smiled.

"Hey!" He said and pulled me into a deep kiss. This remdinded me how amazing and adorable Brendon was. He pulled away.

I giggled. But then felt guilty, I had feelings for TWO amazing guys..

Hey guys! I hope u liked the chapter!! I have to go to bed soon but I had to post a chapter. Even tho its late at night, and I have school tomorrow. I didn;t want to make you wait. And Leah pushed me to write a new part :] Im glad I did though, I have been trying to make time and post a new part!! So here it is! Thanks so much for reading my story, it makes me soo happy! :]

Tagged by bden!

Here are the easy rules.
1) Pick your 10 favorite musical artists. List them or elaborate.
2) Tag the journal "top10bands" so we can have a full tag page of all our lists!
3) Pick 8 more people to do this! Make sure to link them to your original post.

Top 10 Bands

10. Jack's Mannequin

9. Taking Back Sunday

8. Escape The Fate

7. This Providence

6. The Rocket Summer

5. My Chemical Romance

4. the academy is...

3. Panic! At The Disco

2. Paramore

1. Fall Out Boy

So this is my new fanfic :] I hope u like it!

~Tamaras POV~

“Damnit!” I managed to say through my laughing.

“Hahaha that’s the second time today Ryan made you do that” Spencer said laughing at how I spit my drink all over Port Of Sub’s floor.
 We all managed to stop laughing and clean up the mess.

“Lets get out of here.” Ryan said picking up our garbage and throwing it out.

“See ya guys” Tony yelled from behind the counter.

“bye!” Me, Ryan, and Spencer said at the same time.

We walked our of Port Of Subs and just started walking a direction. We always didn’t really care where we walked. We would end up somewhere anyways. There was a bunch of stores to go too here in Las Vegas.

“Its getting late.” Spencer said. I looked at my cell phone. 10:22.

“Ya. Are we sleeping at your house tonight?” I asked.

“Sure” Spencer said.

Me, Spencer, and Ryan have been best friends since we were 5. We were all neighbors. We usually slept over at each others house’s almost every night. Our parents never cared, they were used to it. My parents probably just wanted me out of the house anyways, I had no siblings, but spencer and Ryan were like brothers to me.

“Lets get home. We spent all day out and walking places.” Ryan said. We started walking home, but stopped and decided to sit on a brick wall infront of our neighborhood. We climbed up on it and sat looking at the city lights all over.

Spencer through a rock at a car. The driver rolled down his window and flipped us off saying “Fucking teenagers” as he drove by.

We laughed and kept throwing pine cones and rocks at cars and in the street.

After a few minutes we continued walking home. When we got at Spencers house we walked in and went straight to his room.

"Where the hollywood video bag? I wanna look at the movies we got" Ryan said. Spencer through him the bag and Ryan ruffled through it. I crashed down on Spencers bed and sat againt the wall with a pillow in my lap.

"Ooooo lets watch disturbia or the the hills have eyes!!" I yelled happily.

"Nobody cares what you suggest Tamara!" Ryan said jokingly. Spencer laughed and I through a pillow at Ryans head.

"I agree with Tamara!" Spencer said sitting against his wall on a pillow.

"Okay. lets watch both" Ryan said taking out the hills of eyes and disturbia.

"Lets go to Jillians tomorrow!" I said randomley said.

"Haha okay then we'll go to Jillians tomorrow." Ryan said.

"Lets do anything tomorrow. Im trying to make our summer last as long as possible" Spencer said.

"I know seriously. I cant believe we have to go back to school in 2 days. Uhhhg I hate school" I said.

"I have a feeling starting high school is going to suck too." Ryan said pressing play on the dvd player.

"I know. but I want to get out of our fucking school." I said.

"Maybe this school will be better then middle school" Spencer mumbled out with chips in his mouth.

"Ehh. I dont know, this school might suck as much as our old school." Ryan said. I jumped off the bed and grabbed the chips from Spencer.

"Yaaay!" I said and stuffed my mouth with them.

"Give them back bitch!" Spencer tried to grab them.

" You guys are little kids" Ryan said and grabbed the chips from both of us.

Me and Spencer through pillows at him as hard as we could until he got knocked down.

"You guys aren't supposed to try and kill the person in a pillow fight!" Ryan said getting up.

"Extreme pillow fighting is funner!" I said and jumped back up on the bed and started jumping on Spencers bed while Spencer and Ryan starting watching them movie.

"Oh great Tamara is hyper" Spencer said.

"Is it that hard to sit dow nand watch a movie?" Ryan laughed and i tripped on the blanket and fell off the bed making a thump.

Spencer and Ryan started cracking up.

"Owww" I rubbed my head. I started laughing with them.

"Your such a clutz" Spencer said laughing.

i decided to post a journal about this because that was THE BEST NIGHT EVER! It was my favorite concert! :] Even out of the patd and fob concert :O Omg where do i start?! Well before we got there, me and my friends [leah and kiersten] met..THE BUTCHER! :O Well when we were driving there, i saw the butcher walking up the street! So I yelled out "THE BUTCHER!" And me, Leah, and Kiersten werel ike getting all excited and telling my parents to pull over. lol. so my dad makes a you-turn and drops us off. We ran up to him and asked if we could get his autograph and stuff. So he like talked to us while he was signing our paper. He was so nice :] We were the only ons who saw him, so it was like a one on one coversation without other fans. it was awesome! He was smoking tho..hes too pretty to smoke :|

In line to the venue, we were talking to Jack the camera guy [lol] and stuff. he was funny and awesome. haha. we got his auotgraph too. xD i mean c'mon, hes JACK THE CAMERA GUY! :D so when we got in there, we met up with Abbey and her friends. We had a great view, we were exactly in the front. We were on the side, and we could see the whole stage and everybody on it. we choose to be on the side because it was right infront of the backstage where we could see the bands walk on. and they hung out there, so we could see them. lol. Sherwood was the first band to play, and they were really good. after the show the keyboard played, Mikey, and the lead singer of sherwood talked to us and we got there auotograph. they were so nice! And fun to talk too :] and when mikey signed my paper he put "Hello Tara" then his signature. i thought that was cool :D lol. we had like a whole conversation with them, and im pretty sure nobody else saw them putting away there stuff, so we were the only ones talking to them :]

Then before The Rocket Summer played, Bryce was in front of us backstage, and the backstage is like kinda open, but a curtain covering half of it. And Kiersten and Abbey screamed "WOO GO ROCKET SUMMER!" and he slightly turned around cause he heard us [which was weird cause the crowd was really loud] and we waved and he smiled and waved back at us. omg his smile is so cute! Lol. sorry, but he was adorable! and very talented. he played the guitar, drums, piano, and sing on stage! I thought that was amazing :] The Rocket Summer did great! They sound so good live! then after that I met him and got his auotograph and picture. he was really sweet and shy. [your right Jamie, lol]

Then Armor For Sleep played, they were great! I met Ben, the lead singer, and got his auotograph and picture. he was nice :] his hair looked soft, i wanted to pet it xD

So finally the academy is... played!!! They were so good! And William sounded GREAT! I think he has been working out. lmao. It was so fun! I was really hyper when they came out and was like jumping and singing to every song..that i knew. I left the concert soo happy! I had a poster and paper with auotgraphs :D haha. Me, Leah, and Kiersten's feet hurt so much after the concert from jumping and stuff. And in the car ride home we were like really tired and lying on eachother like hamsters xD It was a school night, so the next day i could barilly even keep my eyes open. I was soo tired. but it was freakin worth it! :]